Thursday, April 14, 2016

So I have been vegan for 8 months

Thursday, April 14, 2016
So in september I decided to go vegan. I had been a vegetarian for a while than. And ever since I thought about going vegetarian, going vegan was already in my mind as a next step I definitely wanted to take, but I thought it was to hard to be when I still lived at home. So I decided to become a vegetarian and see how it would evolve in the future.

The 31st of august we celebrated my birthday (which if it interests you is August 5th) that day I ate cheese cake, but nothing else that contained dairy, but eating that cake I felt a tiny bit guilty, because in the month of august I had tried to eat the least amount of dairy as possible, to see if it was possible for me to go vegan in the family I lived. But I love cheese cake and couldn’t resist. Everyone went home and I started watching youtube, as I do way to much. I had heard of the best speech ever by Gary Yourofsky101 reasons to go vegancowspiracyearthlings,.. But never watched them. That night I decided to watch Gary Yourofsky’s speech. It changed everything. He told so many facts I had no clue were happening in the meat AND DAIRY industry. What it does to our health, environment and animals. I thought I knew but I never knew all this. He showed videos from slaughterhouses. And that is what did it for me. I started crying, and I couldn’t stop crying for a while ( it became embarrassing, my mom came in my room and had no idea what was going on haha) I cried for what I saw, how innocent animals were slaughtered just for our taste buds, but I also cried because I wanted to go vegan after seeing this, I was 100% sure off that. But I never thought it was possible. I never thought my parents would allow it. I am not somebody who can speak very well about what I want or what I think, so the fact that I had to talk about this with my parents scared the crap outta me. So I did what any smart person should do (sarcasm) I didn’t talk to them about it. So the first 2 month, yes you read that right, the first 2 months I was vegan without telling them. How does one do that I hear you ask. I have no idea. When I think back about it, it seems impossible, but I did it, I don’t recommend this by the way. After seeing great results, in my body and mindset, I decided to talk to them. The reason why I didn’t wanted to talk to them about it at the beginning was because I didn’t wanted to tell them I was going vegan for then after 2 weeks informing them that I didn’t wanted to be vegan anymore and quit. I would have been too embarrassed. So now after 2 months I knew for sure I wanted to do this my whole life. So I told them all the information I knew, I told them what an unhealthy relationship with food I had before and how this all changed since I had been eating like this, I didn’t felt depressed anymore, I was happy again. My parents saw the change as well so they were fine with it.
I have survived dinners, vacations, christmas, easter, … all being 100% vegan and never being more happy. I have the energy to work out every day. I can find joy in the little things and feel like I am part off this great community that I never want to leave it again. Being vegan in todays society isn’t hard, you just need to find a reason to do it. And there are enough. Educate yourself, be open minded and discover how amazing life is on a plant based lifestyle.
I just can’t imagine a life where I consume animals, and bare in mind I was the biggest meat eater. I didn’t care about animals or the environment. I would throw my trash on the streets, I would say things as ” I can even eat my own cat that’s how much I love meat”. Hahah, I know I was terrible. But hey the good thing is everybody can change it’s never to late.When I decided to live a plant based/ vegan lifestyle the temperature was nice and warm, the sun was shining all day long. I was craving fruits and juices. I felt the energy that this was giving me. But the Belgian winters are the worst. It’s cold, dark, rainy,… everything I hate and what makes me feel horrible. I would rather do nothing all day. And I stop craving fruits and only want warm, dry foods. A lot of bread and cracker cravings,… so that is something that was hard sometimes. I felt the lack of sugar I got from all these different juicy fruits. But I am happy that the moment I am writing this the sun is shining and I am craving oranges and mangoes again. Summer is so much better. But that’s another issue. But not getting influenced by the weather for my food choices is something I need to work on.
So I have been eating plant based and not buy-in any new leather or wool clothes, which is a challenge for me because I love my designer leather shoes. But the fact that it’s animal skin makes me quite sick so I don’t want them anymore. I didn’t threw them away because all my shoes are in great state and that would just be a waste. It took me some time but since last month I am also trying to get rid off all my beauty products that are tested on animals. I gave almost all my make-up away, and also my skin care, toothpaste and wash products are vegan now. I feel so much better using them. I feel pretty great knowing I use something natural and knowing that it can’t harm your body or animals.
So after being vegan for 8 months, life is pretty great, and I am never going back. My friends accept it and even surest to eat vegan meals when we cook together which I can’t even begin to explain how happy it makes me. It means they are open for it and that is what’s important. I cook a lot more now for my family and learned how much I actually enjoy it. It are the small things that make this lifestyle so amazing, and it are those small things that never make me want to go back. To 8 months and much more to come.

Monday, April 11, 2016

Favorite painters

Monday, April 11, 2016
I went to an art high school  from when I was 14 years old and loved it. Most off my time I would spent my time painting, drawing, printing and making sculptures. But what I loved the most was always painting. Now I study graphic design which I like, but it’s nothing like that joy I feel when I am making a painting were I have been working on for months, and than seeing a result you’re happy with. I really want to share some of my inspirations. I never see artists as people I want to paint like. I have very much my own style of doing things and copying techniques of other amazing painters never turns out great for me. I see these people more as reasons why I started painting. Looking at there amazing work gives me the desire to do this.
“If you want to really hurt you parents, and you don’t have the nerve to be gay, the least you can do is go into the arts. I’m not kidding. The arts are not a way to make a living. They are a very human way of making life more bearable. Practicing an art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow, for heaven’s sake. Sing in the shower. Dance to the radio. Tell stories. Write a poem to a friend, even a lousy poem. Do it as well as you possible can. You will get an enormous reward. You will have created something.” 

― Kurt Vonnegut, A Man Without a Country

This couldn’t be more truth, when you try to make art to make a living. Stop. It’s something you should do as a passion, because you can’t live without. It can be any form off art. It need to make you a better person and needs to make you grow in live. Art is so important for me.
Modigliani was a French/Italian artist and expressionist. His style is just perfect. He doesn’t paint with very much detail you would think, but the people he paints look still very realistic and make make me think that there is so much detail you just miss the first time you look. I want to spent so much time looking at his work. He is mostly known for his paintings and drawings but he also made a lot of sculptures. His main subject was portraits and full figures of humans, both in the images and in the sculptures.
His live may not be as pretty as his work…he developed the philosophical belief that the only path to creativity was through defiance of social norms and disorder in life. Thus began a life long affliction with corrupted beauty, which would ultimately end with his untimely death and the suicide of his grief-stricken wife and their unborn child.

When you ask me who my all time favorite artist is, he is probably the first one I think about. He was born in Austria, and lived a very simple life.
Klimt created a series of paintings that made extensive use of ornamental gold leaf. This is were he became very known for, I guess you all know “The Kiss”. What I loved about him was his combination between realistic and his decoratif print. The skin was always painted very realistic and detailed in contrary with the cloth which were always painted with unrealistic prints. The combination between these two makes his painting so much more interesting. All his work has this erotic feeling.

She is the only one in the list that is actually from this time. I like her work because it’s a combination between  She discribes her work as: “My oil work is amid figurative and abstract art, with an special touch of expressionism that characterize my personage’s soul.” The thing I like about her work is the combination between her delicate oil work,  overlaid by thick, expressive strokes of color.

Let me begin by saying I don’t like all his work. It’s very very dark. And sometimes a bit to much for me. But this painting “Three Studies for Figures at the Base of a Crucifixion”. I my all time favorite painting. No doubt. Before I even know what it meant I loved it. It’s so weird and amazing at the same time. He related these figures to the Eumenides – the vengeful furies of Greek myth, associating them within a broader mythological tradition. This explanation doesn’t really give me a reason to love it more. Sometimes I like work because I like looking at it for hours. This is what it’s like with this painting. I saw it in Tata modern and was blown away.

Rothko is an American abstract expressionist painter. He’s one of my inspirations for the way I paint. The way he uses so much layers to give his work dept and emotions inspires me so much. When I make a painting, no matter small or big, there are always countless layers used. It gives your work so much more character.


Thursday, April 07, 2016

Blue mood

Thursday, April 07, 2016

“Fear, after all, is our real enemy. Fear is taking over our world. Fear is being used as a tool of manipulation in our society. Itʼs how politicians peddle policy and how Madison Avenue sells us things that we donʼt need. Think about it. Fear that weʼre going to be attacked, fear that there are communists lurking around every corner, fear that some little Caribbean country that doesnʼt believe in our way of life poses a threat to us. Fear that black culture may take over the world. Fear of Elvis Presleyʼs hips. Well, maybe that one is a real fear. Fear that our bad breath might ruin our friendships… Fear of growing old and being alone.”
– Christopher Isherwood, A Single Man

Shirt - Zara / Skirt - And Other Stories


Monday, April 04, 2016

Pumpkin spice latté

Monday, April 04, 2016

I believe what you wear determines your mood for that day, if you choose to wear a vibrant color or a dark color. It means something. I felt quite down the last weeks, but I changed my diet, lifestyle, my way of thinking, … I try to write every day at least one positive thing I did or that happened to me. Reading those ridiculous and stupid stories back make me feel very grateful for the things I have and make me smile. I made the decision to throw away most off my boring, dark, negative, old clothes and start over. When I go shopping now I try to pick happy and funny clothes. I only want colors in my wardrobe that describe me for who I am as a person; a happy, laughing vibrant person. Eating colorful food is a big part for me too. I have never felt better eating all these beautiful foods that make me want to move, jump and dance around. Next on the list: the places and people I surround myself with. It’s so important for your self happiness that your surround yourself not only in an environment of happiness but also with people who make you a better and happier person. So that’s why I am wearing this amazing orange and fun striped shorts.

Shirt - Vanilia / Short - Unknown


Friday, April 01, 2016

New me new life new start

Friday, April 01, 2016
Starting all over again. Going in a new direction with your life. When you forget who you are, where you stand for. Sometimes it is the right time for you to re-evaluate your life. Who do you want to be as a person? What are your morals and values? If you’re not truly you, are you willing to work on yourself, rediscover and  then change  that what keeps you from being you? Finding your voice and passions in life is  hard.  But it’s so much harder being unhappy and letting that define you as person. But where do we begin with finding yourself all over again. It’s not something that happens overnight! Puberty  is a time off lost and a lot off judgement. You need time to figure out what you want in life. This can take months or years. Here are a coupple off questions to ask  yourself:

1. What makes you happy and smile?  You can be so blinded by all the things that make you unhappy, but try to remember the things that would make you happy as a child. Reliving those small things can make you feel like your old self and realise not everything is so bad. When you found that one thing that makes you smile. Try to hold on to that and try do that as much as possible.
2. Who are the people you look up to?   Surround yourself with personalities you want to be yourself.
3. Would I want to hangout with myself? Or would I not like myself as an outsider? Would I like myself if I wasn’t me. Or would I hate myself? Try to make a list about the things that you do and don’t like about you. Try to work on the negative points and try to hold on to the positive ones.
4. What  do I want to do with my life, what carreer, do I want to travel, … ? Finding your dream career can really define you as a preson. Finally knowing what you want to do with your life can be such a game changer. It’s so hard to know what you’re passionated to do for the rest off your life. I feel like this is almost the most important thing to have figured out to really know who you are. This can be the start off a new life.
5. What is it that makes me unhappy? Work on these things. Cancel them out off your life. Wheater this is a person, clothes or  material. Just get rid off it. It’s never worth your happiness.
6. What is important to me? Think about things that you value as a person and try to apply these in your day to day life.  
7. Am I doing enough with my life? Or am I just hanging on my couch complaining and feeling lost? Sometimes  going outside, going on  an adventure will open up your eyes and will make you realise a lot. When ou feel lost in life you tent to stay inside and do nothing. All you do is think about hte fact you’re not happy with yourself at the moment. But staying inside watching TV is nothing gonna change about that feeling, a lot off the times it will make it only worse. Do something; go for a jog, do yoga, meditate, read, go for long alks, ride your bike to places instead off the car, it will clear your head and will make you think more straight.
8. Do I care what others think off me? There is only one right awnser to this question, NO. You do you, and if  other people find you weird, immature, irresponsible, stupid,… Don’t botter, those are probably not the right people for you to hang out with. There is only one preson who knows what is right for you. What you wear, do or say is your choice and defines you as person, you can never let someone define or change that. What other people think about you has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. And keep in mind not everybody is the same, that would be so boring there are always gonna be people wo disagree with  you and find you a freak. But remember you are responsible for what you say and do. You are not responsible for whether or not people freak out about it. Starting over again can be so refreshing. It can be so exhausting being stuck in this vicious circle off feeling lost. Don’t wait till tomorrow to  take action. you’re the solution to your own problems, no one else can really know what is going on inside your head, and therefore can not really help you as much as  you.
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